My Own Difficulties in Learning English

     

                        

   

      Like the others, I still hate to learn English back there since I was in Elementary school. I thought “why should I learn some foreign languages when I can use my own language? I don’t understand those unfamiliar languages.” Then I start to watching those Korean, Taiwan, and Japan Dramas which is there is no Indonesia Subtitle that available, all in ENGLISH. So I watch them in English Subs and sometimes(all time actually) pause them to take  a moment to translate it. As time goes by I start to fall in love with English. But unfortunately I never understand what i learn in school as well as I learn it by myself from watching those dramas or film. So, i would like to mention the struggle that still struggling me in learning English. 
     Another way to learn English for me is read some novel or fans fiction(fanfict), mostly about K-Pop (Korean Pop) singers. They write in English so other fans would understand it. Also around 4 years ago, I start to read online novel from Wattpad, I read more novel in english to improving my vocabulary. Another way to delevoping myself. Because there is so many words that I need to know in order to be at my best in learning English. Also a “nightmare” in English is THE GRAMMAR. English had 16 grammar while Bahasa got less of it. I’m a colleger, almost 14 years leaning English but still don’t get it when it came to grammar. You can say that I’m still stupid about it but I would like to learn it step by step.

      Aside from vocabulary and grammar, I think speaking and listening also in my “nightmare”. They still being one of the hardest part of me to learn English. One o the reason is not being all day using English. Even while I write this essay, I also try to speak it well in common to practicing myself and my vocal by how to pronounce it. So I can speak up more when someone or teachers ask me in English. And how to listening them so I can understand what they are going to say to me. I have a friend from Bosnia and stay at my class last year. First day when she doesn’t know anything in Bahasa with a pleasure, I’m willing to help her to translate almost in every subject we had. Is a great way to start a new level for me in English, because in order to learn English I need to practice more at listening and speaking.  Before her, three years ago, I tried to had a great conversation with a women from Hongkong in English. And just last year, I came to one of Pertamina international Forum. I can say that I learn a lot there by listening all of the participation and the resources talking and even did some discussion time. And all they do in English. A great way to challenge myself in listening.

    I’m quite proud to myself because of those what I have been experiences. I still need more and more practice to be in a new level to chase my dream to go to US and British. One day when I can face those four difficulties, I need to face one more my BIGGEST and HARDEST part of learning English is my confident. If those four is my nightmare then this is my scare jump. I had stage fever. Not only when I on a huge stage, but when I speak to other people in English I can feel like my brain frozen. When it came to English I can be nervous all day just greeting someone as example. So I need to be more confident to myself, to speak up more what I want to experience in learning English, like a conversation with my English teacher, or just to answer what they ask in English. I want to be proud and trust myself that I had this confident.

     

      The last one is the one that stayed and live in our mind and soul too.  Laziness, have been my nightmare not only to learn English, but other as well. Kinda hard to deny the feeling, but tried my hard. One of my motivation to kill it is because the Globalization increase too fast to be followed, but you can't sit around and do nothing to defeat your laziness to learn English or something, even if you think you could. As i write this essay, i hope i could do more better to make my dream come true. i do still learning, but i will never stop to learning. To developing what i had. This days, when everything you can do start by using English like it was your first language. So, destroy that laziness, by do more what you carving to do.   

    I'm back to share  my difficulties in learning English to complete my task. Thanks for read this, have a blessed day.